relief

Hellllooooooooooo. (In the marky butt butt voice ;))

So last week was pretty crazy, had midterms + it was my birthday week (omg thanks you shouldn't have). Okay, I kid. I've never really been that "unlucky" to have had exams on your birthday week (and also on your birthday itself) but I guess there's always a first for everything.

Filming took up a lot of time as well, had to film on the birthday itself but it'll definitely be worth it when the results come out and we would have done a good job. I'm getting quite pissed typing this because I keep getting typos, I don't know why, honestly (and no, it is not because I am hungover from yesterday... or maybe).

Uni has been really quite stressful, for those who ask if it's the same as poly. It is far from similar. I don't really understand why it feels so different, yet so similar? Really thankful to have a group of really awesome friends around me most/all the time.

Last week / the week before was definitely when I was at my lowest? When I felt that everything was falling apart, and I had to cram for midterms. Everything that could go wrong went wrong. I don't know how to feel about it because I know there is something I can do to change it, and also I was so stressed out that I don't know how to deal with it? I don't know if it makes sense. Now that I'm less busy and less caught up with things, I feel like I should do something but at the same time, I feel like whatever was done really hurt my feelings a lot and I don't know how to deal with it calmly?

Heard this from someone in the past week - "friends are seasonal, they come and go." As much as I hate to believe this, it is actually true. The person that I thought would stick by me the most didn't, and the one I really thought knew me the most, knew how I would feel the most, turned out the opposite way as well. I was really hurt by the things that were said, and I know what is said cannot be taken back, as much as they want to. I contemplated about going in detail but I will spare you with having to read that.

Thank you to the best friend for the long, heart warming text on my birthday (even though I did make him type a long text) but it is the thought that went through your head while drafting that text is what makes it special. Thank you for always being there for me, even when everything fell apart.

On a completely separate topic.

I'm really sorry for drunk texting/dialling you.

you + tube

so as you can see from the above embedded video, I STARRED IN MY FIRST YOUTUBE VIDEO!!!!!!!

Okay, my "hiiiii" at the start of the video is HIGLY annoying, I am aware, but I didn't know it was this loud...... So this is the new thing we're trying out, "The Ying Yang Show". Hopefully there's more to come?

xx

ps: will be back with an update soonish??? xx

uni

So the first week of uni is already over, and I think I'm considered a uni student now? Not used to the whole waking up at 0530 and getting ready for a 0830 class. To think that I actually thought the end of poly meant the end of classes starting at 0800. School's really quite far for me though, and I really hope I will never oversleep for my classes. (let's see how long this will last)

Before uni started, I was a wreck. Like I thought I was an American living in Singapore because my body clock was THAT screwed up. I would literally sleep when people wake up to go to work and wake up when it's dinner time. Since uni started, I am sleeping at 2100/2200 or even the latest, 0000. I kind of feel like a primary school kid who has a bedtime. But this is necessary because anyone who knows me knows that if I don't get my beauty sleep I will really be no different from a monster the next day. I'm thankful that my friends actually stick by me even when I'm at my worse (I know this sounds a little like an AA meeting, haha).

The friends I've made are really becoming strong pillars in my life, it's too early to say, I know, but I'm thankful that I know regardless of whatever that may lie ahead in our future, I'll always have them to count on. That's definitely something important and essential in any student's life. (So if you're a student and you have no friends, go get some) You know who you guys are xx.

Speaking about friends, I am truly upset and sorry for missing the jalan raya session with the poly girls. I had to catch up and study for exams (BOOOOOO) that will be coming up in a few weeks. I miss them so much because we're all working/schooling (even though I'm the only student lol) and we barely have time to meet up. I miss the "Simpang dinners" and how we would talk about anything and everything under the sun. Yes, we'll definitely meet up soon ;)


So it's about 2146 now and I can barely keep my eyes open. What. A. Loser.

Goodnight xx