relief

Hellllooooooooooo. (In the marky butt butt voice ;))

So last week was pretty crazy, had midterms + it was my birthday week (omg thanks you shouldn't have). Okay, I kid. I've never really been that "unlucky" to have had exams on your birthday week (and also on your birthday itself) but I guess there's always a first for everything.

Filming took up a lot of time as well, had to film on the birthday itself but it'll definitely be worth it when the results come out and we would have done a good job. I'm getting quite pissed typing this because I keep getting typos, I don't know why, honestly (and no, it is not because I am hungover from yesterday... or maybe).

Uni has been really quite stressful, for those who ask if it's the same as poly. It is far from similar. I don't really understand why it feels so different, yet so similar? Really thankful to have a group of really awesome friends around me most/all the time.

Last week / the week before was definitely when I was at my lowest? When I felt that everything was falling apart, and I had to cram for midterms. Everything that could go wrong went wrong. I don't know how to feel about it because I know there is something I can do to change it, and also I was so stressed out that I don't know how to deal with it? I don't know if it makes sense. Now that I'm less busy and less caught up with things, I feel like I should do something but at the same time, I feel like whatever was done really hurt my feelings a lot and I don't know how to deal with it calmly?

Heard this from someone in the past week - "friends are seasonal, they come and go." As much as I hate to believe this, it is actually true. The person that I thought would stick by me the most didn't, and the one I really thought knew me the most, knew how I would feel the most, turned out the opposite way as well. I was really hurt by the things that were said, and I know what is said cannot be taken back, as much as they want to. I contemplated about going in detail but I will spare you with having to read that.

Thank you to the best friend for the long, heart warming text on my birthday (even though I did make him type a long text) but it is the thought that went through your head while drafting that text is what makes it special. Thank you for always being there for me, even when everything fell apart.

On a completely separate topic.

I'm really sorry for drunk texting/dialling you.