capsule

(Stopping the hk blog for awhile now, as you might have probably guessed due to the lack of post #2 that was promised awhile back.)

Five years ago, we were told to write things we would want to our friends and/or ourselves (mostly on small rolled up paper) and we placed them in a toy capsule (like those gashapon machines where you put a dollar in and a toy in a capsule comes out?). We were all supposed to place them in this huge cupboard thing in school and return five years later to find out what your friends wrote to you, or basically to see if you have achieved the goals you set for yourself five years ago. I remember clearly that I missed the date that we were given to pass our capsules to the teachers only to have them place it in the huge cupboard displayed outside the school hall. I was busy buying diamonte stickers from Daiso, cutting them into individual squares and sticking them one by one on the transparent part of the capsule. I wasn't done with Project Bling and therefore did not submit my capsule (probably also because I thought I was cool just not to give it up)

Five years went by in the blink of an eye and honestly, I completely forgot about the capsule. Whilst spring cleaning the room that day and a message from the secondary school group chat, I realised it had already been five years and it was time to open that little capsule and read the notes that were left by friends that once meant the world to me and find out if they were still as important to me as they were before. I found notes written to me by my really close friends from the past. Some of them are, thankfully, still in my life and I am forever grateful to them for sticking by me no matter what. A few, drifted apart as we stopped contacting each other. I remember almost every note had sentences like "thank you for being my best friend" or something around those lines. Most had phone numbers or emails for me to reach them now, as I read through the letters.

There were three other rolled up notes that were a little more familiar. I recognised my own handwriting and realised that I wrote these notes. One to myself, and two for the two boys that were once very important in my life. Don't really remember why their notes ended up with me instead of them, and I guessed I probably chickened out and didn't dare to give it to them as the due date drew closer.

I wished I wrote better things to myself in the note that was meant for Future Me. Upon reading it, I realised how pathetic my life was, five years back. Instead of telling myself to start working hard for my future and setting goals that I was sure I would achieve five years later, I wrote a very stupid line to myself. I wanted to remind myself how much I loved (?) this particular guy. I was furious with myself and how caught up I was with things that are not relevant. Firstly, obviously I would remember what happened and who I used to love (?) with all my heart, and I would need no reminder. Second, why did I let myself get so involved and wrapped around nonsense like boys and relationships get to me whilst I was going to take the biggest exam in four years of my secondary school life. (p/s: the (?) after the word love is because I doubt that was how I felt five years ago, it was probably a stupid crush or something)

In the letters I wrote to the two people who I thought meant the most to me, I basically just wished that they had a good life. In one, I apologised for everything that I did and basically just wanted to let that person know how much he meant to me and also other things that I'm not going to reveal here, just because. In the other, just nothing much but bits of memories from the past and good wishes for the future, with or without my presence. (basically nothing much, also don't know why I was so afraid to hand them the letters)

Thinking about my past made me realise what a bad person I was and I look back and regret every single decision I've made, wishing that I had thought things over carefully before making rash decisions that I know I would regret in the future. I was probably ignorant and just wanted to do what my brain told me to instead of looking into my heart for answers that I really wanted. Comparing my life five years ago, and now, nothing much has changed. I'm still that girl who doesn't think before she does anything. Regretting every decision I've made, even currently. Instead of calling it resolutions, because we all know resolutions are made in January and are probably long forgotten by March, I am going to set some goals for myself now.

1. Think more. Use your brain and your heart, don't pick one over the other. Listen to both and make a compromise between the two, something that you know you want, and something that will make you happy.

2. Never let boys rule your heart and brain.

3. Treasure those that have stuck by you throughout these years. People that are still friends with you after knowing you for nine years, people that you know you neglected in the past but still stuck by you and treat you as their best friend. Thank you, and I'm sorry I was such a bad friend, I will be better and treasure you even more.



I'd think I would remember these as points that should be most important to me and points that I should live by. I would really like to thank the people in the ALL chat group, pretty sure you all know who you are, for continuing to keep in contact with everyone. Even though we're all very busy with our lives, what with the guys serving the country and girls studying/working, thank you for all making time out of your busy lives to still plan and turn up for meet ups. These mean a lot to me and I'm sure we'd be friends forever. I will definitely prioritise you guys and plan more meet ups, exercise days, eating days, or just slack days just to catch up. No matter how busy I may be, you guys will be my priority. I'm sure all of you feel the same and I'm really happy we're still so close, if not closer, five years later. XXXXXX

hong + kong

We arrived in hk in the wee hours of the morning and it was horrible I swear. It was SO hard to try to get some sleep on the plane, because there was an uncle in the seat diagonally behind me and oh boy, he was SNORING like nobody's business. My father snores and it is NOWHERE near that deadly sound. (btw even my dad didn't snore on the plane and he snores EVERY NIGHT) Do you know that even with my earphones on and music at a really loud volume, you can still hear him snore and snore. Sigh. Enough about the snoring uncle, because scoot flights arrive at DEADLY hours, we arrived at like 5 plus/6 AM in the morning and I was so hungry because I didn't have dinner the night before as I overslept and my parents ate at the airport while I was catching up with my ac girls who came and sent me off. 

We took a bus to the streets near my hotel, because taking a bus is so much faster and more efficient than a cab, we arrived rather early, and the restaurant near our hotel wasn't open and that was where we have our breakfast once we touch down every trip. So, everyone was really sleepy and we decided to go take a nap before going for breakfast. My stomach was growling so badly while I was trying to sleep. (I did share a sandwich on the bus with the sister) I was so stoked and looking forward to breakfast also because of my favorite favorite dish ever in hk - macaroni soup with ham. Needless to guess, that was my first meal. 

dad's - set A??? 

(basically just what you see, toast, sausages, baked beans and weird vegetables that are like salad, without dressing)

my favorite - macaroni x ham, with a cup of iced ovaltine 

We then decided to head to causeway bay, which was my HEAVEN. They had Jack Wills there and it was the only Asian store so I had to visit it and of course, buy my share of items. We had a really hard time trying to find the store and I really wanted to give up so many times but my lovely father (even though he did throw his temper while helping me look for the store via google map because we were REALLY lost) finally found the store!!! I did go crazy in there and spent a little more than I should have. They also have Forever 21 (I found the prettiest midi ring there and the queue was too long and the sales assistant was a bitch to my mom so we left, we did return another day but it was already sold out. SIGH), hollister, and basically all the different kinds of shops - etude house, etc. 

We did visit lush and I bought my cupcake mask, a bath ballistic (bath bomb), and a santa baby lip tint. All because they were having discounts and it was dirt cheap. We went to pandora and I got my bible charm!! (Pandora is cheaper in hk, by a few dollars) I did also have my yakpak really full with shopping and I really cannot remember what else I bought there but holy crap, I spent like half of what I saved up for the trip in just one day (actually a few hours) (btw I am in no way trying to brag ok)

MTR sign - it's so pretty with the mosaic tiles

 me x cupcake mask (I look retarded, and yes I do know what the mask looks like...)

I really cannot remember what else we did but I do remember that we went to the mall connected to my hotel, I think it was called Langham place shopping center? They have something like Tangs, because they had like a beauty hall? With different brands all together in a place. The sister and I went a little crazy over at Benefit. I bought my lipsticks and the sister bought her brow kit and holy crap they were so nice they gave us so many free samples. When we revisited the Benefit store a few days later, the sales assistant was SO RUDE. 

Went back to the hotel and took a bath with my So white bath ballistic ;) (the bath water turns pink!!!!!! and it really does smell like apples ;))

I know my days are really not in order because I honestly cannot remember what we specifically did on each day because I have a reallllllyyyy horrible memory so please pardon me. I'll post more in the next few days!!!!!

Just found out today that school starts on the 23rd instead of the 27th. My holiday just got shortened by 4 days!!!!! It really is just another additional day for me because I don't have school on Fridays in the upcoming semester soooo... yay for me? ;)

XX

thanks + resolutions

Soooooooo. It's already 2014???????? Where did 2013 go? It just seemed like 2013 just flew by.

These are the things I'm thankful for in this year.

1. Uni - made the toughest decision of my life this year and decided to go to uni (it wasn't really tough la I like to exaggerate, a lot)

2. The people I've met in Uni - I think the best person I've met in uni has to be Kate, she's just a gem really, and I'm SO thankful for her and she is like really the best thing that has happened to me in uni. (Love you so much bb, thank you for everything you have done for me and for always giving me such great advice that is also Godly at the same time, no words can express how much you mean to me, love you xx) btw thank you bb for the prettiest christmas card EVER X

3. AC girls - even though I've left ac and most of them alr have too, but srsly the friends I've made there have been the best. even though we don't get to meet up so often compared to the past where we would work together almost every single day, when we do, it just seems like we never left each other, we'd always have endless amount of topics to talk about (can't wait to see you all tmr) rly, you guys know who you are and I love you 10eva (coz it's bigger than 4...)

4. Family - what else is there to say? they stick by you through thick and thin, regardless. X

5. My girls - you guys have been there for me since poly and yes we have our countless ups and downs and the down part this year (or I mean last, or 2013) was the worst part of my life and I missed you guys so much. super thankful for you lot, you guys mean the world to me NSAA XXXX

Okay, I don't really know what else I'm thankful for because at this point, I really can't think about anything else, soooo.. I wanted to talk about resolutions and honestly i don't give a shit about those because i cannot be bothered to actually do / complete them.

But I'm gna set like rly like complete-able resolutions and I will stick to them like i will try to okkkkkkkk.

1. try to go to the gym / exercise like once a week

2. get better grades

3. get a ipod classic

4. save enough for a year end trip alone (because travelling alone is fun bitch)  ok la or with friends ok

ok la ok no more bye bye

lemme give you a sneak peek for the next hk post ok

wong tai sin temple 

(btw there will be A LOT of fisheye pictures because i think its pretty and i just got it k) 

i love you all

Merry Christmas (so late) and Happy 2014 guys!

X