given + up

I'm not going to lie to you, the past week was horrid. Last week saw me sleeping all day and forgoing my studies just because of a little bug. A little flu bug to be exact. It was the worst I've felt in a long time and I'd kill to not be in that position forever. It also showed me that moms give the best advice. They know EVERYTHING. Whilst I was down with the worse flu bug, I was constantly hearing mom talk about eno and how I have to drink it to feel better. Honestly I ignored it as per usual. Why would I want to drink something that didn't taste very good when there's a high chance I'll probably feel the same way after? I was so wrong. After half an hour I instantly felt better. It was like some kind of magic potion that nursed me back to health. Now remind me why I don't listen to mom enough. 

Today hasn't been a very good day for me. Won't go into details now but here's to a lesson learnt. 

Feeling really light headed, bloated, nauseous and a lot of discomfort now and I do hope they'd all go away after a long sleep. 

Do you remember this line people say all the time? About how you should always let things you love go and if you're meant to be with that thing/person you love, it'll come back to you? Today, it has dawned on me that something I wasn't ready to let go of was already long gone. Yes, it was once mine, but I've screwed up enough and I definitely don't deserve a second chance just because I will mess things up again. Well, I guess what I'm trying to say here is simply - why hold on to something so tightly when it's not there? 

I really do need to learn to control my temper and not flare up so easily. Anger management is definitely the solution to all problems. 

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bug

Caught the flu bug over the weekends and wasted them sleeping instead of studying for quiz week next week. Every time I start to try and study I get distracted by tetris and also other irrelevant things. I swear my attention span is worse than a goldfish's. I just need to do well for 217 and statistics. These are the two killer mods (not really stats because it's a little similar to poly stats, don't know why i still have to take it then). 

Chinese new year is officially over, which means it's diet time! Time to lose all the chinese new year goodies of ma belllllyyyy. Need to start working out more but I keep procrastinating. Planning for study sessions should be carried out as well. Why am I so lazy?

I don't know how to feel when I see you. I don't want to hate you; I have no reason to. But what I feel and what I want to feel is two separate things all together. It's been so long, they should have all disappeared. 

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Not normally shy but I still don't dare to add you or talk to you more in person...

school

School started on the third/fourth day of CNY, really couldn't remember which (not important). Met all the new classmates and professors and what not. Holy crap, the workload is so much crazier than last semester, even though I'm taking one less module.

407 last semester was so retarded and we didn't even learn much. 408 is so horrid now because i feel so lost. Others can apply what they were thought during 407 and everything but oh my this is so different for us (the few of us from the same 407 and 408). It's kind of stupid how we were SO slack the previous semester and now it's like karma coming back to bite our asses. Meh.

In case you don't already know, Syiq and I are doing this 365 grateful thing on our dayre accounts. It got a little out of point (?) because somehow it doesn't sound very grateful to me anymore but there are pictures there, check it out!

http://dayre.me/thewhimsicalbunny


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