given + up

I'm not going to lie to you, the past week was horrid. Last week saw me sleeping all day and forgoing my studies just because of a little bug. A little flu bug to be exact. It was the worst I've felt in a long time and I'd kill to not be in that position forever. It also showed me that moms give the best advice. They know EVERYTHING. Whilst I was down with the worse flu bug, I was constantly hearing mom talk about eno and how I have to drink it to feel better. Honestly I ignored it as per usual. Why would I want to drink something that didn't taste very good when there's a high chance I'll probably feel the same way after? I was so wrong. After half an hour I instantly felt better. It was like some kind of magic potion that nursed me back to health. Now remind me why I don't listen to mom enough. 

Today hasn't been a very good day for me. Won't go into details now but here's to a lesson learnt. 

Feeling really light headed, bloated, nauseous and a lot of discomfort now and I do hope they'd all go away after a long sleep. 

Do you remember this line people say all the time? About how you should always let things you love go and if you're meant to be with that thing/person you love, it'll come back to you? Today, it has dawned on me that something I wasn't ready to let go of was already long gone. Yes, it was once mine, but I've screwed up enough and I definitely don't deserve a second chance just because I will mess things up again. Well, I guess what I'm trying to say here is simply - why hold on to something so tightly when it's not there? 

I really do need to learn to control my temper and not flare up so easily. Anger management is definitely the solution to all problems. 

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