please

OKAYYYY.
I APOLOGISE.
PLEASE TAKE ME BACK, GUYS.

I know I said I'd blog more, and how I've kind of like vanished off the face of the Earth after my last post... Well, fortunately (or unfortunately,) I haven't. (YAYYYYY!!! no?)

I guess I haven't really addressed it, but I actually got a job... And I also quit my job... All within my "hiatus". I can't even call it a hiatus anymore, it's like a... I don't even know how to describe it..

Okay, I don't really have any good things to say about the job that I got (and quit) so I won't say it, because I've learnt that if you don't have anything good to say, don't say it.


I'm sorry but I guess the reason why I haven't been blogging for so long is because... Well I'd hate to admit it, but I think I have to now. Is that I've kinda lost the touch? Okay, I know it's bull but the words just don't come out anymore and I guess I haven't been letting them in so they'd come out...? Okay now I'm just talking nonsense. I APOLOGISE YET AGAIN.

Well, I guess I just feel like nobody's listening or like nobody's interested. I know typing/blogging has been something I really enjoyed since secondary school (yes I blogged since then but I've deleted and started blogs countless of times) even though I know not many people view the posts but I felt like I was talking to a particular someone, if it makes sense? Recently, I just feel like I've lost the touch probably because I feel the "particular someone" I was writing to in the past just isn't there anymore. I know this doesn't make any sense to you and no, I'm not coming up with some excuse for my absence. But now I just feel a little empty, like the person I've been pouring my heart and soul to has already moved on and I'm still stuck in that pathetic phase, alone.

I realise my posts are getting very emotional, and recently almost all of them are SO SAD AND FULL OF EMOTIONS. I apologise for the millionth time, I know people hate whiny bitches like how I am now, and I PROMISE the next post will not be an emotional one so please just stick with me for a little while longer.

Well, I guess I hate how blogger is not like wordpress (I actually typed instagram, wtf) because I can't block my posts and everything. I have so much to talk about and so much to rant about that I cannot do here. Maybe that's why I don't feel like I have that "particular someone" to talk to. I guess that "particular someone" was nobody. Like I need a place that nobody knows to rant about things and now I feel that people actually read these crap I post up that I can't really rant about everything. No, I don't mean you should stop reading (I don't think anyone would bother reading, if you'd ask me), but well, I guess that's just how I feel.

I'm a very peculiar little fellow, sometimes I just want to rant and make no sense.

I'm sorry.

Again...


(and I also like to end my posts abruptly. ha. ha. ha.)