rant + update

Okay I just kind of want to know, like even fyi or something, like how quickly do you move on after a break up? Does it depend on the sexuality of the person? Like for example, guys move on quicker as compared to girls? Or does it depend on who initiated the break up? 

Well, I always thought it's doesn't make any sense at all when someone (regardless of sexuality), moves on like in one or less than one week. If you were together for like months, and you claimed to have really "loved" that person, how is it that when you guys ended things, you're so ready to find and get into another relationship? I just don't believe in that. It just means that the guy either didn't have any said feelings for you before or that girl's just the rebound girl. Right? 

And how would the other person feel after knowing the other party has moved on? Am I right to say that even if you were the person to initiate the break up and the other party moved on seemingly quick, that you'd feel said party either didn't reciprocate the feelings in the relationship or said party wanted to move on quicker because you weren't worth it and found a rebound. Regardless, won't you feel hurt? Would you be able to wish the person happiness if he/she got over you in one or less than one week, or would you be affected by the situation?

I guess I'm just full of different questions and I just don't understand the point of view from the person who moved on in that short span of time. I understand that there might not be any answers or people to get answers from, which is why I just wanted to put this out and kind of rant a little. 

Just so many questions...

In the other part of my brain that's not busy wondering/thinking about all the content above, is the part so reluctant to head to camp. I really don't know why I'm so hesitant this time, even though I usually liked camps after they're over. I think maybe I just don't want to grow up, and this just feels like it's all happening too quickly. How can I already be in uni? The other reason why I kind of not want to go might be because I really don't think I can make friends. I don't know why I feel that way and I kind of have never felt that way before I go to camps. Maybe it's because I'm at that age where paranoia sets in and I start thinking before doing things, which is another sign that I'm growing up way too quickly. 

I'm just not ready to trade my freedom for a degree. And I might never be...