incompetent

I honestly don't know why but I really think my brain is not wired for studying and remembering things? I can never remember things and no matter how early I start studying for something, I never do well. Sure, I may pass, but it's never what I expected. If I already studied so hard for so long, obviously the information would be in my brain, and I just have to apply it to the questions, right? Why can't I do that?? Even if I come out of the exam hall feeling like I knew how to do majority of the questions and would definitely ace that shit, I never actually ace anything. It seems like no matter how much effort I put in, nothing seems to work. And it kills me to see other people not studying for anything and they do SO much better than me in everything. Honestly, I feel like I have done nothing but try and try and try to do work, to study, but my grades are never pleasing me. I can do really well for a module and can be really happy but when it comes to another module it just kills to see my grades slipping even though I put in more effort then the previous test.

Maybe I'm just not cut out for this. Maybe I'm just that stupid loser who never accomplishes anything. Maybe I was meant to fail. Maybe I'm just that incompetent.